`Why should we put an end to all that's sweet and lovely!' she deprecated.
`What must come will come.' And, looking through the shutter-chink: `All is trouble outside there; inside here content.'
He peeped out also.It was quite true; within was affection, union, error forgiven: outside was the inexorable.
`And - and,' she said, pressing her cheek against his; `I fear that what you think of me now may not last.I do not wish to outlive your present feeling for me.I would rather not.I would rather be dead and buried when the time comes for you to despise me, so that it may never be known to me that you despised me.'
`I cannot ever despise you.'
`I also hope that.But considering what my life has been I cannot see why any man should, sooner or later, be able to help despising me....How wickedly mad I was! Yet formerly I never could bear to hurt a fly or a worm, and the sight of a bird in a cage used often to make me cry.'
They remained yet another day.In the night the dull sky cleared, and the result was that the old caretaker at the cottage awoke early.The brilliant sunrise made her unusually brisk; she decided to open the contiguous mansion immediately, and to air it thoroughly on such a day.Thus it occurred that, having arrived and opened the lower rooms before six o'clock, she ascended to the bedchambers, and was about to turn the handle of the one wherein they lay.At that moment she fancied she could hear the breathing of persons within.Her slippers and her antiquity had rendered her progress a noiseless one so far, and she made for instant retreat; then, deeming that her hearing might have deceived her, she turned around, to the door and softly tried the handle.The lock was out of order, but a piece of furniture had been moved forward on the inside, which prevented her opening the door more than an inch or two.A stream of morning light through the shutter-chink fell upon the faces of the pair, wrapped in profound slumber, Tess's lips being parted like a half-opened flower near his cheek.The caretaker was so struck with their innocent appearance, and with the elegance of Tess's gown hanging across a chair, her silk stockings beside it, the pretty parasol, and the other habits in which she bad arrived because she had none else, that her first indignation at the effrontery of tramps and vagabonds gave way to a momentary sentimentality over this genteel elopement, as it seemed.
She closed the door, and withdrew as softly as she had come, to go and consult with her neighbours on the odd discovery.
Not more than a minute had elapsed after her withdrawal when Tess woke, and then Clare.Both had a sense that something had disturbed them, though they could not say what; and the uneasy feeling which it engendered grew stronger.As soon as he was dressed he narrowly scanned the lawn through the two or three inches of shutter-chink.
`I think we will leave at once,' said he.`It is a fine day.And I cannot help fancying somebody is about the house.At any rate, the woman will be sure to come to-day.'
She passively assented, and putting the room in order they took up the few articles that belongef to them, and departed noiselessly.When they had got into the Forest she turned to take a last look at the house.
`Ah, happy house - good-bye!' she said.`My life can only be a question of a few weeks.Why should we not have stayed there?'
`Don't say it, Tess! We shall soon get out of this district altogether.
We'll continue our course as we've begun it, and keep straight north.Nobody will think of looking for us there.We shall be looked for at the Wes*** ports if we are sought at all.When we are in the north we will get to a port and away.'
Having thus persuaded her the plan was pursued, and they kept a bee line northward.Their long repose at the manor-house lent them walking power now; and towards mid-day they found that they were approaching the steepled city of Melchester, which lay directly in their way.He decided to rest her in a clump of trees during the afternoon, and push onward under cover of darkness.At dusk Clare purchased food as usual, and their night march began, the boundary between Upper and Mid-Wes*** being crossed about eight o'clock.
To walk across country without much regard to roads was not new to Tess, and she showed her old agility in the performance.The intercepting city, ancient Melchester, they were obliged to pass through in order to take advantage of the town bridge for crossing a large river that obstructed them.It was about midnight when they went along the deserted streets, lighted fitfully by the few lamps, keeping off the pavement that it might not echo their footsteps.The graceful pile of cathedral architecture rose dimly on their left hand, but it was lost upon them now.Once out of the town they followed the turnpike-road, which after a few miles plunged across an open plain.
Though the sky was dense with cloud a diffused light from some fragment of a moon had hitherto helped them a little.But the moon had now sunk, the clouds seemed to settle almost on their heads, and the night grew as dark as a cave.However, they found their way along, keeping as much on the turf as possible that their tread might not resound, which it was easy to do, there being no hedge or fence of any kind.All around was open loneliness and black solitude, over which a stiff breeze blew.
They had proceeded thus gropingly two or three miles further when on a sudden Clare became conscious of some vast erection close in his front, rising sheer from the grass.They had almost struck themselves against it.
`What monstrous place is this?' said Angel.
`It hums,' said she.`Hearken!'
