When the duke came back from France,and to pay his first eager visit to his bride that was to be,her ladyship's lacqueys led him not to the Panelled Parlour,but to a room which he had not entered before,it being one she had had the fancy to have remodelled and made into a beautiful closet for herself,her great wealth rendering it possible for her to accomplish changes without the loss of time the owners of limited purses are subjected to in the carrying out of plans.This room she had made as unlike the Panelled Parlour as two rooms would be unlike one another.Its panellings were white,its furnishings were bright and delicate,its draperies flowered with rosebuds tied in clusters with love-knots of pink and blue;it had a large bow-window,through which the sunlight streamed,and it was blooming with great rose-bowls overrunning with sweetness.
From a seat in the morning sunshine among the flowers and plants in the bow-window,there rose a tall figure in a snow-white robe--a figure like that of a beautiful stately girl who was half an angel.
It was my lady,who came to him with blushing cheeks and radiant shining eyes,and was swept into his arms in such a passion of love and blessed tenderness as Heaven might have smiled to see.
"My love!my love!"he breathed."My life!my life and soul!""My Gerald!"she cried."My Gerald--let me say it on your breast a thousand times!""My wife!"he said--"so soon my wife and all my own until life's end.""Nay,nay,"she cried,her cheek pressed to his own,"through all eternity,for Love's life knows no end."As it had seemed to her poor lord who had died,so it seemed to this man who lived and so worshipped her--that the wonder of her sweetness was a thing to marvel at with passionate reverence.Being a man of greater mind and poetic imagination than Dunstanwolde,and being himself adored by her,as that poor gentleman had not had the good fortune to be,he had ten thousand-fold the power and reason to see the tender radiance of her.As she was taller than other women,so her love seemed higher and greater,and as free from any touch of earthly poverty of feeling as her beauty was from any flaw.In it there could be no doubt,no pride;it could be bounded by no limit,measured by no rule,its depths sounded by no plummet.
His very soul was touched by her great longing to give to him the feeling,and to feel herself,that from the hour that she had become his,her past life was a thing blotted out.
"I am a new created thing,"she said;"until you called me 'Love'Ihad no life!All before was darkness.'Twas you,my Gerald,who said,'Let there be light,and there was light.'""Hush,hush,sweet love,"he said."Your words would make me too near God's self.""Sure Love is God,"she cried,her hands upon his shoulders,her face uplifted."What else?Love we know;Love we worship and kneel to;Love conquers us and gives us Heaven.Until I knew it,Ibelieved naught.Now I kneel each night and pray,and pray,but to be pardoned and made worthy."Never before,it was true,had she knelt and prayed,but from this time no nun in her convent knelt oftener or prayed more ardently,and her prayer was ever that the past might be forgiven her,the future blessed,and she taught how to so live that there should be no faintest shadow in the years to come.
"I know not What is above me,"she said."I cannot lie and say Ilove It and believe,but if there is aught,sure It must be a power which is great,else had the world not been so strange a thing,and I--and those who live in it--and if He made us,He must know He is to blame when He has made us weak or evil.And He must understand why we have been so made,and when we throw ourselves into the dust before Him,and pray for help and pardon,surely--surely He will lend an ear!We know naught,we have been told naught;we have but an old book which has been handed down through strange hands and strange tongues,and may be but poor history.We have so little,and we are threatened so;but for love's sake I will pray the poor prayers we are given,and for love's sake there is no dust too low for me to lie in while I plead."This was the strange truth--though 'twas not so strange if the world feared not to admit such things--that through her Gerald,who was but noble and high-souled man,she was led to bow before God's throne as the humblest and holiest saint bows,though she had not learned belief and only had learned love.
"But life lasts so short a while,"she said to Osmonde."It seems so short when it is spent in such joy as this;and when the day comes--for,oh!Gerald,my soul sees it already--when the day comes that I kneel by your bedside and see your eyes close,or you kneel by mine,it MUST be that the one who waits behind shall know the parting is not all.""It could not be all,beloved,"Osmonde said."Love is sure,eternal."Often in these blissful hours her way was almost like a child's,she was so tender and so clinging.At times her beauteous,great eyes were full of an imploring which made them seem soft with tears,and thus they were now as she looked up at him.
"I will do all I can,"she said."I will obey every law,I will pray often and give alms,and strive to be dutiful and--holy,that in the end He will not thrust me from you;that I may stay near--even in the lowest place,even in the lowest--that I may see your face and know that you see mine.We are so in His power,He can do aught with us;but I will so obey Him and so pray that He will let me in."To Anne she went with curious humility,questioning her as to her religious duties and beliefs,asking her what books she read,and what services she attended.
"All your life you have been a religious woman,"she said."I used to think it folly,but now--""But now--"said Anne.
"I know not what to think,"she answered."I would learn."But when she listened to Anne's ****** homilies,and read her weighty sermons,they but made her restless and unsatisfied.
